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A Lost Friendship
Have you ever lost a friendship?
I have. It was with one of the closest friends I have ever had – someone whom I would refer to as F. We knew each other for 5 years and were best of friends, before we parted ways last year. To date, no one, not even our common friends knew what had happened including yours truly. Maybe it was pent up frustrations and misunderstandings that no one had ever tried to clear or explain. At the very least, it remained this way in my personal opinion. I’ve asked, but I did not get an answer on how did it happened and why did it happened in her perspective.
*This post was written almost a year ago and it has been in my drafts for as long as I can remember. I’m also not sure why I got the sudden urge to post this out. It came a little late, or maybe too late. But, I still have a little hope that we could work things out.
How We Knew Each Other
I first knew F when I was 19. That was 5 years ago. I remembered at that time, it was our first semester in University. I never knew who F was until we were introduced by another friend of ours, S.
Before we knew it, the 3 of us became very close friends. We would often hang out on- and off- line and just chat for hours and hours to no end. One of the things I looked forward every day in and after school was just hanging out with them. I felt really happy just being around them.
Over the next few semesters in University, F and I stayed closely connected, while we drifted away from S. F was my closest friend ever.
Friend: “How long have you known each other?”
Me: “We JUST knew each other”
F: “We knew each other in University, not long, at most a few months?”
Friend: “HUH?! Are you sure? If you never tell me, I thought you girls have known each other since young!”
No one could ever guess. F was even closer to me than anyone. We were like a couple, just of the same gender. She was the one person whom I knew I could trust my life with and she would protect it with her life. She knew that I would do the same for her too. She would always be there to provide a listening ear whenever I needed one, no matter how busy she was or what she was occupied with. Whether I was upset, angry or happy, she would be there to listen.
Some of the Things We Would Do Together
We would laugh our hearts out over the slightest thing. We would dry each other’s tears. We would celebrate each other’s birthdays and plan surprises for each other. We would have movie dates together. We would engage in harmless bitching sessions just to de-stress. We would poke fun at everything and anything visible to our naked eyeballs. We would plan and organize overseas trips together. We would engage in loads and loads and loads of photo taking sessions, everywhere and anywhere. We would go round Singapore (and even KL) to taste and experience new cuisines together. We would go round hunting for desserts together. We took classes together, if not, we would take different classes at similar timeslots so we could meet each other after class. We would chat in class even though we were side by side. We would join CCAs together. We would chat endlessly online every day. We would stay up till the next morning watching Korean dramas etc.
Those were the days. Our conversations covered just about everything and anything, from daily events, life, movies, our families, friends, relationships, school, gossips, fashion, shopping, eating, our favorite Korean dramas, hobbies etc.
Deep down, I felt extremely blessed and thankful to have a friend like F. Not because we had a lot of things in common but because I knew that I wanted this friendship so much that I would do all means to protect what we had.
Maybe, maybe I had not done enough. But I did everything I could, I did my best.
The End of Our Friendship
Our friendship may have started off on a strong note 5 years ago, but it had evolved over the years to become one which was left dangling. It was obvious that this friendship was no longer what it used to be. It breaks my heart terribly.
A broken vase can never be mended. I should have known it better.
Obviously, no one goes into a friendship with the intention of ending it. However, I have learned from this incident that there are times when ending a friendship is the best way forward, especially so when everything has already been done to work out the issues. No point blaming or hating one another.
I guess F must have felt that this friendship had caused her more anguish than joy. F might also feel that she had invested a lot of time and energy into this friendship. Many things had changed over the course of 5 years, including us. Our fundamental values and beliefs could also be different.
As all of us evolve in our own personal journeys, we will cross paths with many different people. Some will be just a brief encounter, some will stay for a while and some will stay for an extended period of time. F and I had lost a connection we had towards one another, a bond so strong that I thought nothing could break it apart, but somehow it did. Perhaps one day, we might just cross paths again. Time will heal a lot of things but some things might and can never be the same again.
I miss you F. Thank you for being part of my life. You brought so much joy and laughter to my life that I can never thank you enough for that. I hope that you are doing well wherever you are. You will and always remain close to my heart.
Life after being a student
I am not in the best of moods right now, so everything that I type following this would be considered as irrational thoughts spewed in a pique of frustration.
I realized that studying is the only thing in my life that never disappoints me. Some may wonder “How can that be?” True. But yes. Studying is constant, I know I can depend on it and I know that it is for my own good. Either you pass or you fail. Ironic but yes. Everything else, everyone else is but variables that let you down.
I’ve never bummed for so long before. I never felt so useless before. I need something exciting. Something that makes me think. Something that keeps my brain juices moving. I need a challenge. I want to improve the way things are done. I hate routines and this is not what I expected it to be. I felt cheated.
You know what they say about things always happening at the same time? Well… for those who know, I’ve been ‘infected’, ‘crippled’, ‘brain dead’, soon-to-be ‘toothless’ for the past month and I HATED IT! It is not my fault when someone transmits some viruses to me, in turn attacks my poor eye transforming it into a golf ball, disrupting my vision or when I sprain my knee and ankle, after injuring myself at work, having it look like a parallel trunk and not being able to walk or when I have to fix my teeth, having major surgery on each of my four wisdom teeth, extracting four perfectly healthy ones and on top of it, spending thousands on it just to make it look straight.
Shit happens. I know. You think I want to be absent all these while? In my entire life, I have never taken any MC or missed any lessons. So who are you to say what you said? I do not need sarcastic remarks or creatures lurking around and talking behind my back, trying to put me down. Now that I’ve ‘started’, seems like there are a lot of… shit happening together.
I’m determined to stay and prove my worth. I do not like to give up. It is so not me. But is it worth it? All the talk about being small and having the advantages of being more understanding, more caring, an open door policy, blah blah blah… I think it is bullshit. ‘Nuff said.
On a lighter note, I like the boss. He is so inspiring. I feel so much whenever he gives a speech. I am so happy I finally get to meet him. Sometimes, things just don’t go the way you want it to be. I chose this path, so I have to accept and manage my own expectations.
Learning to adapt is what I’m good at.
SMU Commencement 2009
SMU’s learning culture shapes students into well-rounded individuals with deep knowledge in areas of specialization, coupled with a curiosity to continue to learn, a broad outlook and a desire to make a positive difference in the world.
I have learnt to take risks, dared to fail and learnt to succeed with grace. With that, I have grown and matured into an individual who will seize the initiative, assume the obligations of leadership, and take responsibility for the things I do.
After four long years and countless of late nights, I have made it through!
Did I mention that I was the happiest girl that day? It has been so long… *smiles*
Happy Graduation! :*)
Life’s a climb
I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high
There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb
The struggles I’m facing,
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause
There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I’m going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb
There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb
Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It’s all about
It’s all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith
“The skies don’t disappear from the brightest stars. Opportunities will always open up for stars with the right attitude and capabilities. Be a star and sharpen your skills. I know a star when I see one. And you have it in you.”
Life’s a climb, but the view is great ♥
Graduate
The entertainment industry is an ever-learning place. Lessons are often learnt only after making mistakes. With time and experience, I acquire knowledge of this business and how to better communicate with people. How long will I last in this field? I can only say that I want this and I want to continue doing this for a long time. I am definitely willing to learn from those who are willing to give me a chance. All I need is just that one chance, an opportunity to make a breakthrough.
For the past four years, I’ve been working consistently hard for my studies as an undergraduate whilst working part-time with MediaCorp. Those who know me would understand how much I have gone through to get myself a place in SMU. You really need the Determination and Passion. No matter how hard the journey is, I did not give up but persevere on. It was a marathon, a long run with many obstacles and I’m proud to have finished this journey even though I’ve torn my ligament during this event. Life is a daring adventure. Most importantly, I survived :)
I have learned so much, I have seen so much, I have experienced more than I could and I am forever grateful to have this opportunity to pursue my education in SMU. Thank you to those who walked the extra mile with me and definitely to those who tripped me. If not for you, I would not have become stronger :) I’ve made some really good friends, friends whom I know will stay with me till the end but I’ve also lost some along the way. Tough times don’t last, tough people do. Life goes on.
I will definitely miss being a student. Having to enjoy long summer holidays, slacking around doing nothing and people watch, munching on pick ‘n’ bite’s French loaf toast, watching movies at discounted rates, studying in the library till ‘Closing Time’ starts to irritate the shit out of me, camping in school to finish projects, cursing the bell curve every time results were released, disturbing Professors in their office and having tea with them…and having to sit for exams! HA and the list goes on…
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we’re gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
But when we leave this year we won’t be coming back
No more hanging out cause we’re on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don’t have another day
Cause we’re moving on and we can’t slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
As we go on, we remember
All the times we, had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friends forever
Oh well, at least I’ve got something to look forward to after graduation – 12 job offers (and counting) waiting for me even before I graduate during this economic downturn is not that bad after all (^_^)
Thoughts #1
It is tough once you get out of university especially in a market situation like this. I have the feeling of “now what?” I realized that the decisions I make today or tomorrow may affect the rest of my life.
Do I continue with what I’m doing because I’ve already started? One year might not be long but I feel like it has been forever. I do hope that I will be given more opportunities to shine and definitely do my best to make that happen :)
Do I explore other means of making a living? Do I practice psychology or marketing? Do I further my studies?
All these questions plague me as I am TA-ing for Entrepreneurship and Business Creation class.
*yang wo*
italiano
Ciao! Mi chiamo Cherie, ha ventidue anni- sono di Singapore. Sono una studentessa dell’Universitá di Singapore, SMU, studio psicologia e marketing. Io parlo l’inglese, il cinese, il cantonese e un po’ d’italiano.
Amo molto la cucina italiana come la pizza quattro formaggi, gli spaghetti aglio, olio e peperoncino e il tiramisu. So fare il tiramisu e la torta al formaggio.
Sono molto impegnata!
La mattina, quando vado a scuola, prendo un autobus davanti a casa e scendo vicino a SMU.
Il lunedi mattina non ho lezione, ma vado in biblioteca a studiare con le mie amiche. Il pomeriggio ho lezione dalle 3.30 alle 6.45. La sera torno a casa in autobus.
Il martedi ed giovedi mattina ho lezione di italiano. La lezione inizia alle 10.15 e finisce alle 11.45. Dopo la lezione di solito mangiamo da Koufu cibo giapponese e poi andiamo in biblioteca a studiare con Chun Wee.
Il mercoledi mattina non ho leziono, ma vado in biblioteca a studiare o meeting con i miei compegni di corso. Il pomeriggio ho lezione dalle 3.30 alle 6.45, dopo vado in palestra: corro e giocare a Muay Thai.
Venerdi mattina dormo fino a tardi e poi vado all’Universitá, ho meeting tutto il giorno. La sera finalmente sono libera ed esco con Chun Wee. Di solito mangiamo in pizzeria e poi andiamo al cinema.
Il fine settimana non ho lezione e resto a casa a studiare. Qualche volta vado al cinema, raramente vado al Takashimaya e faccio shopping. La sera di solito leggo un libro, mando qualche sms e poi vado a dormire.
Nel tempo libero vado in piscina, a giocare a Muay Thai e suono il violoncello. Se é da sola guardo la televisione, qualche volta leggo un libro o ascolto un po’ di musica.
In famiglia siamo 4 persone: mio padre, mia madre e mia sorella minore Clarie. Mio padre si chiama Lee e mia madre si chiama Kim. Il mio indirizzo é in blocco Bedok, 91. Abito in una appartmento piccolo con una vista bella.
Ho tre amici italiani. Si chiamano Francesca, Riccardo e Mattia.
Ho un ragazzo, si chiamo Chun Wee. Lui é molto bello, abbastanza alto, moro con i capelli corto. Chun Wee é simpatico, intelligente, carino e affettuoso. Sono fellemente innamorata, innamorata pazza di lui :)
