Life after being a student

I am not in the best of moods right now, so everything that I type following this would be considered as irrational thoughts spewed in a pique of frustration.

I realized that studying is the only thing in my life that never disappoints me. Some may wonder “How can that be?” True. But yes. Studying is constant, I know I can depend on it and I know that it is for my own good. Either you pass or you fail. Ironic but yes. Everything else, everyone else is but variables that let you down.

I’ve never bummed for so long before. I never felt so useless before. I need something exciting. Something that makes me think. Something that keeps my brain juices moving. I need a challenge. I want to improve the way things are done. I hate routines and this is not what I expected it to be. I felt cheated.

You know what they say about things always happening at the same time? Well… for those who know, I’ve been ‘infected’, ‘crippled’, ‘brain dead’, soon-to-be ‘toothless’ for the past month and I HATED IT!  It is not my fault when someone transmits some viruses to me, in turn attacks my poor eye transforming it into a golf ball, disrupting my vision or when I sprain my knee and ankle, after injuring myself at work, having it look like a parallel trunk and not being able to walk or when I have to fix my teeth, having major surgery on each of my four wisdom teeth, extracting four perfectly healthy ones and on top of it, spending thousands on it just to make it look straight.

Shit happens. I know. You think I want to be absent all these while? In my entire life, I have never taken any MC or missed any lessons. So who are you to say what you said? I do not need sarcastic remarks or creatures lurking around and talking behind my back, trying to put me down. Now that I’ve ‘started’, seems like there are a lot of… shit happening together.

I’m determined to stay and prove my worth. I do not like to give up. It is so not me. But is it worth it? All the talk about being small and having the advantages of being more understanding, more caring, an open door policy, blah blah blah… I think it is bullshit. ‘Nuff said.

On a lighter note, I like the boss. He is so inspiring. I feel so much whenever he gives a speech. I am so happy I finally get to meet him. Sometimes, things just don’t go the way you want it to be. I chose this path, so I have to accept and manage my own expectations.

Learning to adapt is what I’m good at.

 

Life’s a climb

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing,
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I’m going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It’s all about
It’s all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

 

“The skies don’t disappear from the brightest stars. Opportunities will always open up for stars with the right attitude and capabilities. Be a star and sharpen your skills. I know a star when I see one. And you have it in you.” 

Life’s a climb, but the view is great ♥

 

Graduate

The entertainment industry is an ever-learning place. Lessons are often learnt only after making mistakes. With time and experience, I acquire knowledge of this business and how to better communicate with people. How long will I last in this field? I can only say that I want this and I want to continue doing this for a long time. I am definitely willing to learn from those who are willing to give me a chance. All I need is just that one chance, an opportunity to make a breakthrough.

For the past four years, I’ve been working consistently hard for my studies as an undergraduate whilst working part-time with MediaCorp. Those who know me would understand how much I have gone through to get myself a place in SMU. You really need the Determination and Passion. No matter how hard the journey is, I did not give up but persevere on. It was a marathon, a long run with many obstacles and I’m proud to have finished this journey even though I’ve torn my ligament during this event. Life is a daring adventure. Most importantly, I survived :)

I have learned so much, I have seen so much, I have experienced more than I could and I am forever grateful to have this opportunity to pursue my education in SMU. Thank you to those who walked the extra mile with me and definitely to those who tripped me. If not for you, I would not have become stronger :) I’ve made some really good friends, friends whom I know will stay with me till the end but I’ve also lost some along the way. Tough times don’t last, tough people do. Life goes on.

I will definitely miss being a student. Having to enjoy long summer holidays, slacking around doing nothing and people watch, munching on pick ‘n’ bite’s French loaf toast, watching movies at discounted rates, studying in the library till ‘Closing Time’ starts to irritate the shit out of me, camping in school to finish projects, cursing the bell curve every time results were released, disturbing Professors in their office and having tea with them…and having to sit for exams! HA and the list goes on…

 

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we’re gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?

But when we leave this year we won’t be coming back
No more hanging out cause we’re on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don’t have another day
Cause we’re moving on and we can’t slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound

As we go on, we remember
All the times we, had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friends forever

 

Oh well, at least I’ve got something to look forward to after graduation – 12 job offers (and counting) waiting for me even before I graduate during this economic downturn is not that bad after all (^_^)

 

Thoughts #1

It is tough once you get out of university especially in a market situation like this. I have the feeling of “now what?” I realized that the decisions I make today or tomorrow may affect the rest of my life.

Do I continue with what I’m doing because I’ve already started? One year might not be long but I feel like it has been forever. I do hope that I will be given more opportunities to shine and definitely do my best to make that happen :)

Do I explore other means of making a living? Do I practice psychology or marketing? Do I further my studies?

All these questions plague me as I am TA-ing for Entrepreneurship and Business Creation class.

 

*yang wo*

italiano

Ciao! Mi chiamo Cherie, ha ventidue anni- sono di Singapore. Sono una studentessa dell’Universitá di Singapore, SMU, studio psicologia e marketing. Io parlo l’inglese, il cinese, il cantonese e un po’ d’italiano.

Amo molto la cucina italiana come la pizza quattro formaggi, gli spaghetti aglio, olio e peperoncino e il tiramisu. So fare il tiramisu e la torta al formaggio.

Sono molto impegnata!

La mattina, quando vado a scuola, prendo un autobus davanti a casa e scendo vicino a SMU.

Il lunedi mattina non ho lezione, ma vado in biblioteca a studiare con le mie amiche. Il pomeriggio ho lezione dalle 3.30 alle 6.45. La sera torno a casa in autobus.

Il martedi ed giovedi mattina ho lezione di italiano. La lezione inizia alle 10.15 e finisce alle 11.45. Dopo la lezione di solito mangiamo da Koufu cibo giapponese e poi andiamo in biblioteca a studiare con Chun Wee.

Il mercoledi mattina non ho leziono, ma vado in biblioteca a studiare o meeting con i miei compegni di corso. Il pomeriggio ho lezione dalle 3.30 alle 6.45, dopo vado in palestra: corro e giocare a Muay Thai.

Venerdi mattina dormo fino a tardi e poi vado all’Universitá, ho meeting tutto il giorno. La sera finalmente sono libera ed esco con Chun Wee. Di solito mangiamo in pizzeria e poi andiamo al cinema.

Il fine settimana non ho lezione e resto a casa a studiare. Qualche volta vado al cinema, raramente vado al Takashimaya e faccio shopping. La sera di solito leggo un libro, mando qualche sms e poi vado a dormire.

Nel tempo libero vado in piscina, a giocare a Muay Thai e suono il violoncello. Se é da sola guardo la televisione, qualche volta leggo un libro o ascolto un po’ di musica.

In famiglia siamo 4 persone: mio padre, mia madre e mia sorella minore Clarie. Mio padre si chiama Lee e mia madre si chiama Kim. Il mio indirizzo é in blocco Bedok, 91. Abito in una appartmento piccolo con una vista bella.

Ho tre amici italiani. Si chiamano Francesca, Riccardo e Mattia.

Ho un ragazzo, si chiamo Chun Wee. Lui é molto bello, abbastanza alto, moro con i capelli corto. Chun Wee é simpatico, intelligente, carino e affettuoso. Sono fellemente innamorata, innamorata pazza di lui :)